Lost myself to the things unseen,
Holding so tightly to my misery.
This anger, depression, and self pity,
Have become my hearts identity.
I don't want to let go.
I don't want to let go,
Because this pain has made a home inside of me.
You came before me as a Light,
and set fire to the sin that I had built my home upon.
For this foundation of sin allowed the walls to fall upon my heart
with and unmeasurable weight.
You have filled my soul that once cried out in agony,
to now weep tears of joy that have found their way into the very marrows of my bones.
This life pails in comparison to what I will eventually hold in my hand.
The place that I will eventually call my home.
But Father, I have slept in the company of the devil,
opening my cold eyes to the shame his presence bring.
I've hated myself.
I've hated everything.
But this despair is not from Your hand.
You fill my heart with a joy unimaginable.
That fills this Earth from the depths of the ocean to the heavens above.
Why God do You care for me so?
Each time I strayed from You,
Each time I cursed You,
You pulled me back in and gave me a home that no amount of shame could overturn and capsize.
Father, thank You for those moments.
For the first time in my life
I don't hate myself
for being the way that I am.
The first time in my life,
I'm content with where I'm at,
And where I'm going.
I don't need this,
Anymore.
I don't need this,
Moving forward.
The bitterness
doesn't have to sting.
Depression
doesn't have to linger
Longer than it has.
No longer stuck
Right here.
No longer slaves
To this.
No longer slaves,
To the world unseen.
credits
from Native Tongues,
released March 20, 2015
Featuring Jack Bridges of Overgrown & Underground
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